When I set out on this journey my goal was simple. I wanted to become the best possible photographer that I could become. And from humble beginnings I have improved. I have studied, and learned, and practised, and gotten better. But I have also gotten very distracted.
Producing high quality work is one mark of success… but I got very caught up in another mark of success. I wanted SO badly to be able to call myself a “professional” that I seriously believed financial or business success was the only success that counted… that meant anything. To the point where producing the best work possible for me, became a secondary consideration.
I am not currently the best photographer that I can be.
I still have MUCH to learn.
In the past 12 months this blog has grown and blossomed and turned into something that I am very proud of. I have SO many incredible followers, whose loyalty and love and dedication to this blog, blows my mind!!
But it has been so much more than just a photography blog. I never believed that the general population was the least bit interested in which f-stop I used, or what the ISO was. So I wanted to talk about things that interest me. Turns out, that some of those things interest you as well… and that has been a true blessing. However, after an entire lifetime of being on a spiritual and personal development path.. it is now becoming increasingly clear to me that I in fact, know very little. And certainly not enough to be advising other people.
Don’t get me wrong…. I “know” a lot of stuff. Intellectually, I “know” a lot of stuff. I have read all the classics when it comes to spirituality and personal development. I read the books.. listen to the tapes… download the podcasts… do the meditations. But until I can actually “walk the talk”… and do it 100% of the time, then I no longer feel that I am in a position to be telling anyone else how to live their lives.
All this rambling to get to my message…
I intend to stop blogging.
In this current format at least.
Knowing me and my massive ego… I am sure that if I get a killer shot that I just absolutely can not resist sharing with the world, then I will have to post it.
And maybe it’s just the time of year.. December traditionally gets me very reflective and introspective. But I feel I need to stop… take stock… regroup a little. Focus on my craft. Do better. BE better. Try harder.. but not from a pushing, forcing place, like I have so many times in the past. But from a space of really connecting with what is important to me, as a person and as an artist.
And if I do have something to say that I feel is worth sharing… I will certainly do that also.
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